Thursday, July 22, 2010

Hands...

A man some years back, sat feebly on his porch.
He didn't move, just sat with his head down staring at his hands.
When I sat down beside him he didn't acknowledge my presence and the longer I sat I wondered if he was OK.
Finally, not really wanting to disturb him but wanting to check on him at the same time, I asked him if he was OK.
He raised his head and looked at me and smiled. "Yes, I'm fine", he said in a clear strong voice.
"I didn't mean to disturb you, but you were just sitting here staring at your hands and I wanted to make sure you were OK.
"Have you ever looked at your hands," he asked. "I mean really looked at your hands?"
Slowly i opened my hands and stared down at them.
I turned themover, palms up and then palms down.
No I guess I had never really looked at my hands as I tried to figure out the point he was making.
As he smiled and related this story.
" Stop and think for a moment about the hands you have, have they served you well through your years?
These hands, though wrinkled,shriveled and weak have been tools I have used all my life to reach out and grab and embrace life.
They braced and caught my fall when as a child I crashed on the floor.
They put food in my mouth and clothes on my back.
As a child my mother taught me to fold them in prayer.
They tied my shoes and pulled on my boots.
They held my rifle and wiped my tears when I went off to war.
They have been dirty, scraped and raw, swollen and bent.
They were uneasy and clumsy when I tried to hold my newborn son.
Decorated with my wedding band,they showed the world that I was married and loved someone special.
They wrote the letters home and trembled and shook when I buried my parents and spouse and walked my daughter down the aisle.
Yet, they were strong and sure when I dug my buddy out of a foxhole and lifted a plow off of my best friend's foot.
They have held children, consoled neighbors, and shook in fists of anger when I didn't understand.
They have covered my face, combed my hair, and washed and cleansed the rest of my body.
They have been sticky and wet, bent and broken, dried and raw.
And to this day when not much of anything else of me works real well, these hands that hold me up, lay me down, and again continue to fold in prayer.
These hands are the mark of where I've been and the ruggedness of my life.
But more importantly, it will be these hands that God will reach out and take when He leads me home.
With my hands, He will lift me to His side and there I will feel "His hand in mine." When my own hands are hurt or sore or when I touch the face of my children, I know they have been stroked and caressed and held by the hands of God.
I too want to reach out for the hand of God and feel His hands upon my face.
Please take the time to look at your own hands. Have they done all they can for the Lord?
"Thanks to all of the folks I know who have "Worn Used Hands!"

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Life inspite of me....

I have a new favorite inspirational book! It's called Life in spite of me by Kristen Anderson
If you haven't read this book, you're missing out on an amazing story of how God can help us triumph over anything.
This book is a true story about a 17 year old girl's idea of what a relationship with God is truly about. When the book starts Kristen is feeling let down by life and she feels like she should just take her own life because she's not loved or appreciated...She does attempt to commit suicide by throwing herself on a train track...She manages to survive with severed legs...The really great part of this book isn't about how she was unsuccessful in taking her own life but discovering how much she was really worth in God's eyes and how she decided to start living for Him...Throughout the book there are letters written to us the reader giving advice on things like warning signs for someone who may be suicidal, or how to develope a closer relationship with God...A prayer that someone could say if they want to get saved...and at the end of the book there's even a letter from Kristen's mom describing how she felt and what the rest of Kristen's family went through while Kristen was healing from her failed suicide attempt.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Just stuff!

Things are crazy in my world these days!My dad left my mom to be with another woman 35 days before their 32nd wedding anniversary and she's taking it pretty hard. But then again, who could blame her...32 years of being married to the same man is a long time to spend with someone, to have them basically throw you away like yesterdays trash.We are starting to get things lined up for how she's going to take care of herself with no income and no way of getting around...She and my dad have finally talked and he's planning on coming to get some more of his things on Saturday! He's such a liar...I went to Bankruptcy court on the first and he did nothing but lie...it's amazing how when we are kids we think our parents are some kind of super heroes that can do anything and as we grow and change we realize just how wrong we were about that...I used to have my dad on some sort of proverbial pedastal so to speak but after him doing my mom so shady I no longer have any feelings for him but resentment and animosity...maybe with time those feelings will fade, but I don't think that will be for a long while yet...I'm so angry for how he has the power to hurt my family the way he has...dealing with that anger just fuels more anger...Work is extremely busy...I shot a wedding last Sunday, have a VBS and a 52nd high school reunion this Saturday...things are just busy,busy!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Today....

Today I just want to reflect on me and where my life is going...changes are coming...I can feel them in the air...not sure if that's going to be a good thing or a bad thing...I just know something big is about to happen in my life...have you ever felt that way? I'm just curious...My baby brother is now officially part of the working man's world...he started his first job yesterday...I hope he learns to accept his new tasks...I photographed one of the most beautiful weddings this past Saturday...I'll post some pictures soon when I have a bit more time...I need a vacation...I'm yearning for the smell of the ocean and to feel the sand between my toes...I want to have salt water in my hair and a great suntan...I want to smell like a coconut...I just need an escape from reality for awhile...life has been too crazy here lately...

Friday, April 9, 2010

Welcome Spring!!!!!

It seems like Spring is finally here and it's here everywhere...I love spring because everything is starting to bloom and rejuvenate from the long cold winter...It seems like everywhere I go the birds are chirping and the flowers are blooming...I'm working on getting a Spring Portraits in the Park day together so if you or anyone you know would like to get together and have you pictures taken in the park let me know!

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Dear God are you there?

Dear God,
I know you have an awful lot to deal with and I'm not complaining, or telling you how to do your job, but I just feel so alone sometimes, like you're not there watching over me or my family anymore. Have we done something to make you angry? I know the bible says don't question You or Your Divine Plan. Sometimes that's so hard and this is one of those times for me. I help people when they need it, I go out of my way to make others days just a little brighter, I pray to you almost daily, and I'm the first among my friends to say that if times are hard and they have trouble lurking that You can take care of them and their worries. Here lately it seems like every story on the news is one of assault or abuse. Where's the good ones that speak of Your love and how You are the Light, the Truth, and even the Way! My family is going through some major things right now and I feel forsaken. My brother is almost 18 and I've tried to teach him about your Never ending Love but when he needs you the most it seems like you're aren't there. Please come back to us Lord. Make the things inside my brothers head leave him alone and let him have some peace Lord. He is so tallented with his music, please teach him that You gave him such tallent so that he can use it to Glorify You. Please give me the strength to keep fighting the good fight and the courage to help offer support to my brother in his time of need. And another thing why can't my nieces stay well? You can make the world and everything in it in 6 days and take a day of rest on the 7th day so I know that you can make 3 precious little girls well. I'm so frustrated right now...It just doesn't seem fair that all of these horrible people can walk around in their day to day lives completely healthy and not contribute anything positive to the world but three precious little girls and one incredibly tallented teenager who truly depict Your Light to the world can't stay well or not hear horrible voices in their heads telling them to do horrible things to people. I'm searching for answers and I can't make sense of any. Please show me Your will Lord...give me the answers that I seek, help me to help my brother, please give my sister strength to endure what lies ahead with her beautiful little girls...I know that if You bring us to it that You also will bring us through it. Please show us the footprints where you are carrying all of us...The path seems awful rocky and rough, not to mention lonely! Please help us find our way back to the path that You have laid for us.I ask these things in Your Son's precious name.Amen!